Finding Happiness

A few years ago I found myself in a constant rut of negativity.  I would wake up being mad that I had to go to work {wasn’t too fond of that job} and I would go to sleep grumpy that I had to get up again so early the next day {had to get up at 4 am for said job}.  I was seriously affecting the people around me and I could feel that I was not a pleasant person to be around. I hated it. I starting writing positive self-affirmations all over my house, from the white board on my fridge to a sticky note on my bathroom mirror, they were EVERYWHERE.  I need to be reminded to be happy. To be thankful.  To be nice.  That might seem silly to some people but it was my reality at the time. I knew I had to do something to get myself out of my rut. I was the only person who could make it better, so, quite simply, I did just that.  Slowly but surely, the little notes started working. I’d find myself smiling when I saw my fridge note in the morning or the one I’d left in my planner the day before and forgotten about. 

I also started praying daily {sometimes 3 times a day} and thanking God for everything I had.  Instead of complaining about “having” to go to work, I thanked God for giving me the opportunity to go to work every day and make enough money to fully support myself.  There are countless people looking for jobs on any given day, and I knew that I had to appreciate and be grateful for what I had. 

These days I don’t even have to think about it when my alarm goes off in the morning…I’m immediately saying thank you thank you thank you to God for giving me another day.  Another day to wake up next to my amazing fiancé, another day to live in my cozy apartment, play with my adorable puppy, see my friends…the list is truly endless.  As someone who has suffered from anxiety and depression issues for the better part of 10 years {a post for another day}, I’m not sure I ever thought I could be this happy.  My life may not be perfect, but I’ve never been striving for perfection, I’ve always been striving for happiness. 

Regardless of your personal beliefs, if you ever find yourself in a situation like this or know of a friend who seems to be in a rut of sorts, give this a shot. Positive self-affirmations really do work.  So does prayer.  So do the work to find your happy, it might just be the best thing you ever do for yourself.

So you want to start a blog, eh?

This was the question I asked myself this morning and the following dialogue all took place up inside my pretty little head. 

Creative brain:  YOU SHOULD START A BLOG TODAY.

Lazy brain: But why? Blogs take work. And if nobody reads them, all I’ve got is a glorified online journal my future spawn might stumble upon and then they’ll be privy to all of my deepest darkest secrets.

Creative brain: You don’t really have any good secrets.  You make most of them up.

Lazy brain: Touché my creative counterpart. 

Creative brain: Seriously it’s getting crowded up here so YOU SHOULD START A BLOG TODAY.

Lazy brain: If this doesn’t work out, you know it’s your fault right? 

Creative brain:   -_-  {yes, my creative brain makes faces}

So that brings us to now.  Welcome to Our Little Corner of the World.  This is the brain child of a plethora of different creative writing ventures I’ve thought of over the years. And I promise to pay more attention to it than I did a similar venture I started after college. I didn’t have a clue what I was doing in any aspect of my life back then so it was difficult to put a few sentences together let alone many sentences that could constitute an interesting blog post.   While I think there are some salvageable pieces I can recycle over here, I want this blog to showcase this amazing journey that I’m currently on. I have a bit more direction these days and I’m knee deep in the middle of planning my dream wedding with my amazing fiancé.  Our little corner of the world currently orbits around a 57 lb English Bulldog named Capone.  We are making our way towards our Big Fat Greek- Italian- Irish- Norwegian- German wedding and beyond.  I hope you’ll come along for the ride. :)